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Country: United States
State: Indiana
Gender: Female
Interests: working with people, art, music, i love sports, especially basketball and soccer. recently married, and it's making me re-learn everything i think i know...but i love it. :)
Expertise: singing, making a fool of myself.
Occupation: Student
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Member Since:
11/17/2004
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| OBAMA is the president elect. The Democrats have majority in both the HOUSE and the SENATE. I'm so happy I might pee myself! For the first time in quite some time, I am excited to call myself an American. I can't wait for the next four years!
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| For those who have asked, yes I am teaching now. It's not the adventure I thought it would be. In fact, I don't really like it at all, most of the time. I'm coming to end of an entire week's break, and I loved it! I love waking up each day with the feeling that I am in control, and I can appreciate the beauty around me. No one will get in my face to day and scream profanities at me. No one will make me question my capabilities, sanity, or worth as a human. I can live without fear of what I have to offer being damaged or wasted. It has been such a refreshing week!
Now that the weekend is here - and those always seem to go too fast nowadays - I am not really excited to go back to school. Fortunately, I only have two weeks until we have another week off, so I'm excited. I can certainly see the end of two weeks. However, at the end of two weeks, my portfolio is also due. This high-stakes document is supposed to portray, in detail, my "student" teaching experience. I am about one-third of the way done with it, and I suspect these next weeks will be spent editing, rewriting, formatting, and compiling. So while my classmates complain about how their students are so productive that they have a hard time filling their classes with enough instruction, I yearn to complete one single lesson without a student trying to pick an argument with me or having to send someone out of the room. Oh public education...I never knew.
I just keep thinking - this is supposed to be my thing. I'm a teacher. I care for children. I want to help prepare the leaders of our future. But most of my students don't see a future for themselves outside of prison or welfare. I look at them, and I can see some sort of twilight zone, where these kids become famous musicians, or conductors. They want to be doctors, lawyers, community leaders, and teachers. I try to teach to that part of these kids, and ignore the other, ominous extreme where these kids grow up to be thieves, murders, and rapists. The scary thing is...either of those realities is entirely possible. And that realization helps me to see how important it is that I give my job my best effort. And yet...
I don't like who I am as this teacher. I don't like feeling burnt out and taken advantage of. I don't like feeling spent and worthless at the end of the day, like I'm fighting a losing battle. My dea and loving husband has mentioned how different I've behaved this week, and I thought, "It's because I haven't been at school all week!" God, I must sound like a terrible person to say that. I see the need these kids have, and I'm working to fil it, but there's only so much I can do. I'm still trying to figure out if my counting the days until my contract is up makes me selfish an stuck-up, or if it makes me a cautious young teacher trying not to be burnt out of the profession. So far, I can't tell.
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| Creative & Free Form - Your percentile ranking is 90 [What is this?] You
need an artistic or imaginative element in your work in order to find
the career that fits. Your powers of visualization are strong, as is
your ability to see patterns and trends long before others do. Though
you can be impatient with restriction, you need to master the
conventions of your art in order to find the structure that gives you
true freedom of expression. Express yourself you must, and if you find
a career that lets you set your own schedule, so much the better. Your
productivity and your enthusiasm go hand in hand, so while others may
be content to work for money alone, you won't find the right job till
you're in a career that gives you joy. Communicative & Empathetic - Your percentile ranking is 73 You
need the human connection in your work to feel genuine satisfaction in
your career. So, you're a natural for any of the "helping" professions.
Whether in intimate one-on-one professions like counseling or nursing
or in group-oriented service careers such as non-profit administration
or community leadership, you'll be best place in a job that takes
advantage of your innate communication skills. A career that puts you
in a position to display your social skills is a necessity. You also
require work that brings not just money but meaning into your life.
Care, compassion, and the genuine willingness to serve incline you to
positions of social responsibility. The career that fits is a career
that lets you help others who depend on you. Innovative & Risk-Taking - Your percentile ranking is 43 "I
wonder what would happen if..." is your mantra, and you need a career
with an element of risk to get you out of bed in the morning. You're
willing to experiment, to learn by acting and doing. Your continual
questioning of the status quo reflects your need to find a better way
to do what people do now or a new way to do what others don't even
realize needs doing. Yours is an entrepreneurial, "start-up"
personality. You like to test boundaries, and your innate confidence
means you're well placed in careers where power is at issue--business,
politics, sales. Since you're willing to take the risks that pay off in
tangible rewards, you need a career where money--or its equivalent--is
the measure of success.
My "analytical/down-to-earth" score? ... 0.
I need a new job...
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| Soo....I got my haricut, and I love it. Apparently, so does everyone else I run into. It's a much-appreciated lift in my day when someone says, "Did you get your hair cut? Hilary, you look HOT!" I am allowing myself to enjoy these compliments and treasure them as precious.
There is only one person who has not had a near-orgasmic response to my new style. She is one of my favorite people ever - one of my dear 4-year old friends. Oh, excuse me - she turned 5 recently. She saw me at school and asked, "Why did you cut your hair?" I told her I wanted to and I liked it better this way. She said, "I liked it longer. It's ugly now." I was, and remain, heartbroken.
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| Today is Monday. It is the Monday before finals week, and that is
exciting. Regardless of the fact that my summer classes begin a scant 3
weeks from today, I have completely surrendered to the summer fever. I
am so excited for the start of my summer camp! I still have a great
deal of preparing to do before it starts, but I enjoy the preparation
almost as much as the experience itself. It was in one of these prep
meetings with two of my key brainstormers that a tell-tale hoosier
moment occured, and I had to record it.
Welcome to Indiana, where it is perfectly acceptable to hire vehicles
with large, plastic animals mounted to them. During our camp
brainstorming meeting, we were trying to come up with field trips and
activities for our Planes, Trains, and Automobiles week. The suggestion
that generated the most excitement?
"Let's get the limo with the giant chicken on it for the kids to ride in!!"
Excuse me? The who with the what?
Having not seen this spectacle myself, I can only rely on my hoosier
colleagues' testimonies that a limo with a giant chicken mounted to its
roof is indeed as awesome as they say. I liken it, in my mind, to other
roadside phenomena found only in Indiana, like billboards promoting
Micro-surgical Vastectomy Reversal. First of all, that's quite a
phrase, and saying it is awkwardly amusing. Or another billboard
counting down to some kind of record, but leaving almost no information
to promote it.
Oh these hoosiers. Stay tuned for more fun Indiana insights!
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